Ok, I'm kicking myself in the ass. I will get my damn demo reel done and uploaded by month's end, dammit! In fact, I just blocked off the time on my calender to focus just on that, each day for a minimum of 4 hours.

I've been depressed lately with the approaching holidays and having a tight budget that involves having to get outside assistance from my parents just to get the bills paid. I hate living like this, and can't take it anymore. I need paying work.

The show is coming along well, but we're still in "promo" stage, meaning that there is no money coming in. It could take weeks or months, and I can't keep doing this.

I looked at Craigs List again today, and there are editing and/or shooting jobs, but every one of them wants to see a reel (duh), of which I don't have ready yet. I feel like I've backed myself into a corner, and the more I think about what all I have to do, the more depressed I get and I shut myself down, especially with the impending holidays and the pressure to afford presents.

No friggen more, dammit.

I've got awesome gear, and people love my work. I need to stop wasting time on other crap and focus on me for once. No visitors, no going out, nothing... until it is DONE.

I put myself in this position, and I can't change my surroundings, waiting for it to fall into my lap. I need to make it happen. Time to get back to serious work (without the crazy amount of hours like I did over the summer, but still scheduled hours that state, "I'm working!").

Pardon my rant, but I apparently needed the fire under my ass. We've been organizing the home, and it's totally helping to organize the rest of my life too.

Headliner Alert:

I'm not sure if this makes me a good parent or bad parent but....

Our very own Headliner is gunning for an audience shot at Good Morning America on Friday. Rather than packing for our thanksgiving trip we are here making a sign for her to wave in front of the cameras.

If you happen to be watching keep a weather eye out for us.

Err, unless it's cold, then keep a weather eye our for Headliner and mom while I'm back at the hotel snuggled in.

I just decided I'm going to hold open house ON Thanksgiving.

Nuts? Probably. Effective? We'll see...

It might be a good thing, Goonie... I remember doing stuff like that on afternoons after special dinners. (I'm sure you know this) Just make sure that word is out on it. It's something I would do after a T-giving meal, but I tend to have my blinders on during the holidays and pay little to no attention to stuff that isn't in my face a bit.

What I hope will happen is that everyone will leave early tomorrow.
That would be awesome.
:)

I wonder if you could get little tart sized pumkin pies to set out.

Regardless, Wednesday night before T-day is consistently the WORST traffic of the year.

True but I've found if you wait until your regular leaving time, rather than leaving early, it's not as bad later. Everyone trys to cut out after lunch.

We're not allowed to leave early.

It's a miracle we're allowed to wear our Friday wear (jeans) tomorrow.

Not in my experience as it is usually a combination of people who didn't get off work early going home along with people heading out of town. It is usually a cluster fornication.

Also, I don't know if it is still true, but I know Wednesday night is typically one of the busiest for pizza delivery people. Seems no one wants to cook or go out the night before T-Day.