{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}} MG.
You take care, and you vent all you need!

Thank you. Still weeping, but the anger has set in. My sister tells me I am going through the grief process.

Nickolas and I cleaned out the motorhome tonight. I got all of my stuff out of it so that he can take the POS without my pots, pans, dishes, blankets and towels. I also took the dvd player and toaster (I bought them, I can take them). I am sure Dawn will have fun restocking it.

Tomorrow morning I will be calling a locksmith, going to the bank and buying a Club (for my car) and a padlock for the back gate. I will also be calling a lawyer that my mom knows. She said that she and Daddy will pay for my legal costs. I will also be canceling his Speedpass (for gas!no wonder it has been so high, he has been paying for her gas too) and suspending his cell phone (it is on my account).

Hey MG - SOrry to hear about this. Makes me wonder if the Human race will ever survive because of a-holes like this. People are just down-right selfish - no doubt. Best of luck - lots o' good vibes to you.

I've started this post a few times, but there just aren't words enough in the English language to adequately convey the utter suckitude of your situation, MG.

Get a good lawyer. Do not scrimp on that front. You're a great mom and a wonderful person and there is a special toasty place in hades for you-know-who. Both of them.

He told me his name was Bill!

My mom just said something that makes me cringe. At some point tomorrow or this week, I am going to have to talk to David, and tell him he can start getting his stuff. I will be looking into a restraining order, so that he can't legally enter without my being here. When he does come over, most likely Dawn will be with him. I really don't want to see either of them, but especially not her! She pretended to be my friend. Looking back, the last contact I had with her was right before she must have gotten pregnant. Luckily I never said anything to her that I didn't want to get back to him.

6 months before Jimmy killed himself he asked that (more like forbade) David not be in his house unless he was home. Was something going on way back then?

Wednesday night he brought up CPS, so as this whole thing progresses, I am sure he is going to try to prove me unfit to get Nickolas. I am fsr from being the worst housekeeper, but compared to Dawn I am pretty bad.

Nickolas and I are cleaning the house, the living room is dusted and picked up and I am starting on our bathroom. Tomorrow we will attack his room with a vengance.

I really don't see how he can get full custody, since he has "abandonded" his son, and if I am so awful then he should have take him long ago.

I am trying hard not to be petty, or think that he will be petty, but I know who is pulling his strings and filling his head with lies.

Ok, time to go put away my GOOD jewerly and prepare for the worst.

Tomorrow is going to suck.

Okay, but you're right... for the next couple years or however long it takes to finish the legal stuff, you need to stay really on your toes and not give him anything to use against you.

I would also suggest you be present while they pick up his stuff, painful though it may be, if you're nervous enough to be thinking about stowing jewelry, then you should stick around and watch him.

I would also take anything you are worried about over to someone else's house.

My parents are coming over tomorrow. My dad wants to make sure he gets things that he gave me, things that he wants Nick to have and not David. My main cncern is my car, it is in both of our names.

I will be asking about a restaining order to helplegally keep him from coming in the house when I'm not home. The crap in the garage is mostly his and not stuff I would want or need.

I don't want her anywhere near me. I don't want her to ba able to accuse me of threatening her. Luckily, I know what sort of tactics she uses and can do my best to avoid them. I am thinking about moving his clothes and things into the motorhome, that way I can limit the time he spends in the house. I already starting tossing his clothes into a box.

I am terrified about what is going to happen. I can't lose Nickolas. I just can't let him be taken from me.

I don't want to keep his stuff just to get even with what he has done. I want to be the better person, but some how I don't see him behaving the same way. When did he plan on telling me? After the kid was born? He told our neighbor (last night at the races) that he thought I knew, that Nickolas had told me. Nick thought the whole thing was a joke, he is 10 years old, he still thinks that people have to be married to have babies. David didn't have the balls to tell me, he wanted his son to do it.

My mom is pissed that he showed up at Christmas, knwing then that she was pregnant. I would so totally laugh if the baby isn't his. She cheated on Jimmy, so I don't know why David thinks he is so special.

*sigh*

I am going to go clean some more.

The car, is it you and him or you or him?

Your son sounds sweet, I wonder when they realize you don't have to be married to have kids? I think it just becomes something they know.

Don't worry too much, don't give him that. You have so much on your side.

It sounds like even his family would back you?

I am so sorry you are going through this.

The car is both, with his name first.

slept for about an hour. I have started dumping his clothes in plastic bags and in a few hours those are going in the motorhome.

I woke up thinking that I had dreamed this whole thing, but the bed was still empty and things were as they were.