On a Quest of RE-discovery...
 

I have found an entirely new appreciation for all things David Bowie.

Soon, like NA, I will be able to pin point brief instrumental stanzas in shopping centers, reminiscent of some B-side recording....

/le sigh

Anyone else on a path of re-discovery??

I don't know if this counts, but here goes.

I think I'm re-discovering myself.

Recently, I decided to tackle my depression head on. I have resumed seeing a therapist that I really like. She's wonderful. And pretty, too. (I don't know why I mentioned that, but she's fabulous.) Anyway, I decided that I was missing out on a whole lotta life by letting this medical condition break me. So, I decided to pick myself up.

Ralphie, or course, is in my corner with this. He's ecstatic.

I've decided to write more. My head's too full of ideas. I need to get them out.

I also auditioned for a play and got cast. That's good news for me.

I'm also looking to find a job that pays me a bit more. I love the rewarding nature of the homeless shelter, but we've got bills to pay.

We're going to go see a credit counselor to help us with debt. We're trying to find one that doesn't damage our credit rating by going to them for help.

These are just little steps, but I'm hoping to be happier soon. I think I deserve that.

:)

And I love David Bowie.
:)

I love David Bowie, too.

Don't know if I'm on any particular path of self-discovery ... though being in a gay relationship is a newish thing, expressing something that's been within me since I was 8 or so.

Very recently (too recently for anyone to notice), I've decided that some more personal improvement and spiritual next-stepness is in order, and I'm taking some nascent steps in those directions that I hope bear yummy fruit.

I've rediscovered reading over the past year. I'm still the slowest reader on the planet, it took me 8 months or so to get through a book I just finished (though to be fair, I did read a few books in between there). But I went through a long stretch where I just wasn't reading anything at all. Now that I have a job, and lunch breaks that I'd rather enjoy outside in the SoCal sun, it's been a nice addition to my routine.

Music is creeping back in. My collection had been stagnant for a long long time, and I really was unable to find new music (I dislike 99% of mainstream crap, and I've never been very skilled at weeding through the "underground" to find anything I like). But I began listening to KCRW, and went to Coachella last year. That's got me excited about finding new music.


No no no. Shrooms are fungi, not fruit.

Awesome!

I too, though I may have only mentioned David Bowie, am on a path of personal self-rediscover-first-time-discovery, whatever. I'm just trying to remember who I was, and figure out who I am now. Finding me has been a compelling journey. Learning to lose ego, and truly laugh is something I aim for, if such a thing can be aimed for. Finding myself through losing myself. Probably a bit like finding nirvana, but maybe a touch more of what I'd call realistic.

What a year this will be!

And then there's Bowie!

WOW! I don't know how I got such a Bowie reputation, but I dig it!

I go through phases spured on by developments in my life - or lack thereof. After being sick recently - and still not 100% - I feel the depression comming on. The goold ole feelings of worthlessness, of having nothing to contribute that anyone would or should care about. I really hate this mode and try not to give it much creedence. I know it will pass. But, it also gives me a bit of focus on what DOES need to change - or at least what should be looked at. It's always the same things......fat, job, house, money, education and relationships.

At the moment, I'm just sitting quietly, taking small steps toward a few of those things until my energy level goes back to normal. That's a pretty big list and I can't do even half of it at one time. But, I have little expectations and strive for progress not perfection. That keeps me sane and gives me better results.

But, it's still difficult not to be frustrated at the moment.

Although everyone keeps mentioning Bowie (and GD is reading and looking for music), I thiiiiiink this thread belongs in the Lounge.

You just WANT to moderate, don't you!

LOL, my intentions were to actually talk about what things musically/interests-wise that people were getting "back" into... so it actually belonged there as the intent of my OP. I was honestly looking for where people were going (or returning) musically, film-wise, and in the bookish of all senses. It is not my fault the thread compelled even more. ;)

As a matter of fact, moderation is part of my personal improvement project ... just not the kind of moderation you meant.


I'm going to try and tone down the intensity .... so it would be a great service to me if friends would give me the inverse stage direction 'slower and less intense' whenever appropriate.

Thanks ever so.

Eh. I just babble appropriate or not. Put me on ignore.

And I'm with Ghoulish on the music thing. It's been far too long since I've taken an interest in new stuff. I want to get back into it, but I'm not sure how.

I need a young person to feed me potential groovy sounds.

Well, I suppose it doesn't fit in with "slower and less intense"...but Coachella's coming up.

;)

Well, hon, both Chris and I are younger than you and have been listening to LOTS of potential groovy sounds. Actually moreso that most of the "young" people I know.

From long-time Coachella goers, I've heard that this year's line-up is their lamest ever.


Maybe the Bonnaroo Festival ...

Well, you have a computer (or two), don't you?


Feed me, baby, feed me! :snap:

Feed yourself. You know our house is always open. We'll guide you.



OK. That's it. Music listening party at our pad with a trip to Amoeba or Fingerprintz.

Ow, my tooth.

LOL! That took me a sec.

Been good lately
exercise
cleaning up
prioritizing
enjoying breathing

ok, maybe not "good" but at least "better"
feeling better about doing better
means more doing better
I guess

Today I feel stuck to the seat
must shop, must clean
must write something, anything
muscles don't move

These renaissances get shorter and shorter
I'll do well for a few weeks, then a week, then less
until my ass gets attached to the couch again

So much to do, so much to ignore
reread, review, retry, reboot
don't know when to move forward or when to look back
and the stuff that I've done needs rechecking

can't live it all
can't live at all
trapped in lazy malaise

where the fck is my coffee

Don't take me record shopping. Seriously.

You know, my overall goal is life is to be surrounded by creativity, humor, knowledge, fun and stimulating conversation.. That may be in the work I do, the people I hang with, the things I participate in or my solitary activities, but these things are of the upmost importance to me.

And, I re-realized this while vaccuuming - which I define as none of those things. Being completely berift of what I need most get my brain working a little harder in achieving what I really do what.

I am currently re-discovering nothing. Every attempt fails more spectacularly than the last and I remain stuck in this purgatory-inspired phase of waiting. Family does their best to remind me that this is typical for me, and that such stagnation is eventually broken by some sort of burst of personal development that is proportionate to the amount of time spent in the stagnant swamp. But that doesn't make swamp life any more appealing.

Bah humbug.

Classic Disney animation. The Damned. T Rex. Alfred Hitchcock.

(short post because these things take so much time)

True enough - but the it's never the headliners that are the most memorable

Music-wise, I'm not sure - my musical taste seems like a huge snowball rolling down a hill - it just keeps expanding in all directions (Oh and definately don't take Jesse record shopping - except maybe in Tokyo).

Personal life -wise, I guess my Metro Commutting has given me the chance to rediscover reading as more than a "before you go to bed" passtime. It's also a time for meditation, contemplation, and grooving to the sounds of my iPod.

rrrrrawr!

<<<--- INSPIRED

We had seats right at the front of the right hand side of the stage for Bowie's "Reality" tour (section 2 in the seating diagram HERE) He spent AGES on the elevated catwalk at that side - eye to eye with us !!!

Does that count ? :snap: :p :D

My body! I've done laps in the gym pool every night for a week.

My writing! I took a break over movin'-outy November and holiday-y December and most-depressing-month-of-the-year January and I'm back on target and hoping to close out the screenplay soon so as to submit to several competitions.

Horace Silver! I always forget about "Songs for my Father" until I'm digging through my CD collection and feeling bored.

Holy crap! I just re-discovered the joy of discovering new music!

ACK!

They're not new, per se... But my joy is newfound: Safety Scissors