Never been depressed
 

I've never been depressed.

I've been sad
I've been angry
I've been introspective
I've been anti-social

But I've never been depressed.

I faked it once.
Three family members died in a short period
When I was in elementary school.
I mourned for them and I grieved
But I was never depressed.
But one day I was tired at school
So I pretended to be depressed about it
So that I wouldn't have to really do anything
Because people would feel sorry for me.
I cried
and I moped
But it was an act

I sometimes wonder
If people think I don't have feelings
Or compassion
Simply because
I've never been depressed.
It's not true, you know.

:cool:
Good stuff. Love it love it.
:)

:snap:

My sweetheart, solid as a rock in a world of irrational, emotional turbulence. You definitely balance my instability well. ;) And yet, on most days, your empathy exceeds mine. The power of your logical mind in regards to emotional decisions forever impresses me.

People don't think you don't have feelings - we envy the power of your judgement to override the stupid impulses our emotions give us. And if anyone tries to tell me you don't have feelings I'll kick their ass. :D

Love you.

I like it!

Thank God we are all unique beings. Things would get rather boring (or mopey) otherwise. :)

Geez, you emotionless robot! ;)

I kid, I kid!!

:snap: :snap: Very nice....and I doubt anyone thinks you don't have feelings. And just because you've never felt something yourself, doesn't mean you don't have compassion for those who have. :)

I like the straight forwardness of this, especially the "I faked it once" line.

Thanks, that was my favorite part too. :) I just kept thinking, "You know, I could write some great moody poetry too...if I were ever moody. But I never have been, so oh well. Oh, but there was that one time I faked it..."

GD ~
I know this is going to sound a little weird. (Maybe it's because I just watched 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind'...) But I would voluntarily give up all my happy memories I have collected thus far in order to never experience another depressed day for the rest of my life. Needless to say, I wish I had your 'problem'.
:) :cheers:

Well, maybe your parents did it right? I don't know. I know that growing up, we weren't allowed to be a lot of emotions. It was so big 'Think about the starving kids in China!' 'Would you like me to give you something to cry about?' 'You are so selfish'.

So, I never had to fake it. I didn't know what to fake. I remember a friend asking me if I ever felt depressed and I told her that if ever I started to feel down I told myself 'There are others worse off than you are'.

Later, someone else asked me if I'd ever suffered depression. By this time I realize that I had. I'd been through a lot of things but kept going like 'Gunga Din' {sp, it is what my MIL called me}.

I think it is great to be able to recognize it. It makes the good days that much sweeter.

I have some songs that I put in my cd walkman and hit the pavement and just enjoy. Smell the roses. Carry my pepper spray.