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Originally Posted by €uroMeinke
Ok GC - here's my interpretation, but sit down, you may not want to hear this.
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I appreciate the analysis.
I think there is a part of me that actually admires Republican conservative Bushies. Let me explain. This weekend Ralphie and I stayed over at a friend's house. Melody and her husband live in Oxnard in a suburban area. It liken it to living in Disneyland. It's clean, it's pretty, it's controlled and everything you could possibly need is in this one area of their suburb. They have lots of neighbors (many know her by name, the minister to a church down the way lives next door), there is a little park across the way with a barbeque pit and swings, the elementary/high school is one street over, their Wal Mart is 2 blocks away, IHOP is down the street... everything is very 'perfect'. All of the houses look the same. All except the coveted corner lot houses that have two nextdoor neighbors instead of 3 or 4.
It's very Stepford.
My friend, Melody, is very regimented in her life. She goes to work, she comes home, she walks the dog, she talks to the neighbors, she goes to church on Sunday and ocassionally has friends over. It's all there in a nicely wrapped package for her and her husband.
She knows how liberal Ralphie and I are, but tries to convince us often that we should go to her church and pray. She loves Bush. Anyway, not to stereotype anyone, but Melody's life is very uncomplicated, routine and calculated. She's very concerned with her appearance and isn't all that well versed in social issues and wish a lot of them would just go away. Outside of us, her other friends live in similar suburb settings.
In a way, I envy her. I wish my life was like hers. I wish I had a wife, house in the suburbs, two car garage, knew the people next door, went to the park with my kids and shopped at Wal Mart. But I don't. I wish answers in my life were easy like Melody's. She doesn't care about a woman's right to choose, she loves us but doesn't care about gay marriage, she goes to church and doesn't think twice about what they're telling her to think...
I wish my life was that easy and uncomplicated. I wish I could have black and white answers to things. I don't. I envy the way George Bush can make a decision and not doubt himself. I wish I could just ignore things and rocket through my life without a care.
That's the George Bush part of me that's there. The part of me that wishes I could be thoughtless, inconsiderate, self-absorbed, pious and completely lacking in accountability. I wish I could be all those and achieve greatness...
But I am none of those things. I care too much. I have 'the loudest conscience ever' as iSm puts it and I can't turn it off. (I mean, doy, look at my username.)
Example: When I walk Frodo and he is done peeing and crapping, he grabs the leash (which is still connected to him) in his mouth and walks around. This is his way of telling the world 'look at me, I'm walking my damn self'. I love it when he does that. He's rebelling against oppression, even though it's me doing the oppressing, I condone him doing it. Good dog. I feel bad that he's on a leash.
What would happen if I asked him to leave? Hmm. Maybe the fact that I would be afraid that I couldn't default to his way of doing things if my way ultimately fails? Dunno.
I think the president does stay because I don't want him to leave. Maybe I admire someone who has gotten his way so often and is thought of so highly by some in this country (60 million people at least) but hasn't a care in the world while he steps on people's necks to achieve greatness. Maybe he's getting the validation for being such a great guy when he knows deep down he isn't.
I'm not sure. I do know that this dream is a lot deeper than I thought. Either that, or I'm a closet Evangelical Christian. Who knows? All I do know is that I never want to live in the suburbs...