Aw, Ponine. My heart hurts for you right now.
I am reading between the lines and sensing you have been through a very emotional time. Even though the words are painful, you have written them beautifully. And, they are so real.
I am glad to see you back here.
If you see the calendar, there are a lot of events coming up, I hope you can make it to one/some. I am going to try myself so I would hope to see you there.
{{hugs}}