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Well, I appreciate the anti-suckage comments....I wasn't really meaning to imply that I think I'm a horrible person, as I don't. I was just taking a look at what I do, what I don't do, what I should do, and realizing I fall far short of the person I should be.
I've never been much of a legacy person, but there was something about that funeral last night. I suppose I have been fortunate not having anyone near to me die since I have had children, as this is the first funeral I've been to in over 13 years. With the inevitable contemplation of ones own demise that a funeral brings about, have I raised the best kids I could have to this point? Have I taught them the things that are most important to me and to them?
I realize not everyone can be a humanitarian, and it isn't in me. I also realize that I make an impact in the lives of kids I coach (going to another wedding of a former player tomorrow). I don't wonder if I'll be remembered as a great man, and I don't really care about that. I just wonder mostly about my kids and if they'd be.....ready isn't the right word. I don't even know what the right word is. I don't want kudos for a life well lived, I just want to make sure I've lived it.
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