[lizziebith]

And thanks guys, for the private support, and "win" I'd rather not have. I didn't post much while all this was going on...in fact I deleted my old LJ and MySpace accounts, because privacy seemed to be called for. I've cried more in the last two months than I think I have in my whole life prior to this point. I told my mom last night that I think my coping mechanism finally "got broke". And I was just glad she took the call. I stupidly tend to forget to talk to friends about **** that's going on. I should have told you all. I'll try to not be such an idiot in the future...