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Body Image...
Well i've always struggled with this from day one. My sister is 10 years younger than me and growing up i'd hear all the compliments she'd get and how pretty she was and it just made me have less and less self esteem. I couldn't compete or compare. Her body is different than mine. But that's when i decided that i wanted to change and i did. And for a time i was happy that i could fit into a small size and didn't have a problem with clothes. But then i let myself go again and now i am struggling to get back to my former weight when i was in my 20's. Growing up my brother used to call me "thunder thighs" it hurt and it did make an impact on me negatively in fact. But my weight was hiding an underlying issue i had struggled with since age 5. (for those who know great those who don't i do not feel like rehashing it all). But i really think that had alot to do with it To make myself unattractive was my way of dealing with it.
CP the only jeans i ever have luck in wearing are from Old Navy btw. Those are the only ones that seem to fit right. I don't bother looking for jeans anyplace else. Same with work clothes.
This year 2008 i decided to do something about my body image once and for all. I'm on week 5 and my work pants are so big i am gonna need a smaller size (1 size down) and my one pair of jeans i could not get into i can now slip on and zip and button up.
I used to hate my nose but Matt loves it and i have grown to love it. And my mom has said the same thing to me. There will always be something i don't like about my body (thighs most likely).
Oh about breast implants i was a slow bloomer and thank goodness i never got implants but my sister decided when she was 18 to get implants and we are the same size just about. She didn't want to wait. But that was her choice.
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