[Morrigoon]

I think I'm hitting my streshold. (stress threshold)

Hate hate hate this one report I have to do, where seemingly no one knows how to count an "opening" for a loan, and yet I have to report numbers for it. Getting numbers from the loan reps is like pulling teeth because even THEY don't understand the info and how to count it, so they give me too much or too little info, resulting in my report almost always being wrong, late,and late revised again.

Over the course of a week I do the functions of three vastly different jobs (all part of my one "main" job) and am somehow supposed to keep on top of them all, which of course I fail at miserably because I can't possibly remember to check paper levels in copiers and printers while answering phones at our NB office while simultaneously making recruiting calls and then the next day remembering which of my uber-important reports need finishing by which date without forgetting that I also have to process and file incoming car insurance info and sorting out which office supplies orders have come in and need to be paid, while I'm in the AV office, and which project I left where two days ago when I was in that same location. Oh, on top of which, of course, I have clients of my own to keep on top of and try to sell homes to, plus my schedule with Disney, plus rehearsals (luckily only through the rest of this month), and in all this, I'm supposed to somehow remember which prospective agents I've set up appointments with and be able to follow up with the recruiting managers who never call me back (one of them never calls me back) to find out which appointments have actually taken place and which haven't and who from several months back they have hired that were my appointments so that I can somehow go back and remember when the last time I filled out a bonus report was, and keep it updated so I can get the bonus money I'm due.

Am I just lazy/disorganized? Or is my work life as much of a clusterfvck as it feels?