No, I was not angry they are black. I just felt it approrpriate to hurl that word against them when they acted against my civil rights.
It was an impolitik choice. And I regret only that particular choice, but not the anger that prompted it. And it has zero to do with racism, though in this case the hypocritcal minority was a race. If the jews had voted 70% in favor of Prop 8, I would have called them ****s. If the gays had voted against black civil rights, I would call them fags.
None of this from racism or sexism (notice there's no word for the type of bigotry against homosexuality) ... but from anger at hypocricy and the feeling that a reminder of why it's hypocricy is appropriate. I could have done better expressing that reminder than to use the short-cut ephithet of nastiness. And I only regret I didn't think it through and express that less offensively.
I'm really very offended myself, though don't ask anyone to care, that my attempts to correct, apologize, explain my innermost thoughts and failings are met with dismissal and contempt by some.
And I'm very appreciative of those who've put my use of a nasty word in perspective.
And, yes, I'm appreciative of the feedback and criticism ... it's been primarily constructive.
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