[blueerica]

I wonder when this nightmare of a time I'm having will finally be over.

I wonder if I'll actually post this, or delete it all because just thinking about it and having it down somewhere in permanence is too overwhelming. I wonder if I'll just post it anyway, because it feels a little cathartic.

I wonder when the butterflies will leave my stomach, and go elsewhere.

I wonder if I'll get a good chance to write today.