Yeah, i don't read Soooooo so often, so I'm so late in responding to so much.
I realize I went overboard with my no-boyfriend-yet activist stuff. I won't deny it was on my mind, but it was always said in humor and I didn't realize until CP pointed it out that it was seeming a bit protest-too-much.
That was a great service to me. Sometimes I don't realize I've said something a zillion times before if it's still on my mind. Pfft, I just posted something in the Post Prop 8 thread today about Obama that was almost a word-for-word retread of what I posted yesterday. (
There was a new wrinkle, but I would have left out the Obama part if I'd remembered I'd posted it just the day before).
Anyway, thanks to CP or anyone who calls me on my sh!t or anything hinting of ulterior motivation. Often we don't see ourselves as well as others see us. Sometimes those observations are incorrect, but it never hurts to check them out with a self-reality-check.
I quit gay activism this week. I wasn't feeling the post-Supremes-Decision passion nearly as much as I'd imagined I would. I feel perfectly comfortable with others carrying on, and with my life not so inundated and dominated by gay activism. But in all honesty, if a few of the dozens of pals I made had become good friends, I might have continued just for the fun of it.
I won't deny that a major benefit, perhaps THE major one, of anything I get involved in is the friendships that might form. I can't be sustained by the "thing" alone, even if that thing is somewhat important. While I would have been happy finding a boyfriend, it wasn't something I expected or demanded in order to be satisfied. But no social friendships among the many, many pals I've made after six months is a great disappointment that I cannot abide.
Sure, if I still felt as passionately about The Cause, no close friends or lovers would not make a difference. But the lack of real friendships was indeed a deciding factor in me dropping the SGA from my name.
It's going to be a difficult transition from constant activity to really nothing going on.
Heck of a time to be tempted by the new iPhone.
