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					Originally Posted by Cadaverous Pallor  Found others with kids that are actually cool - CHECK. Maybe they'll eventually merit an invite into my LoT world, heh.
 There are areas that I'm very laid back about with Theo and others where I do obsess a bit.  It can be hard to not second guess yourself when you have very little feedback from someone who can't tell you what they need. I can't say I'm fully successful at tamping down the crazy but I'm doing as well as I can.  I will continue to work on it.
 
 For 2011...I use a lot of tools in my parenting kit, including Patience, Playfulness, Optimism, Joy...and they need sharpening constantly. I resolve to keep smiling amidst hard days because he deserves the best mom I can be.
 
 I resolve to have more people over, and to visit people more often.  Sure, there are limitations, but there are also many possibilities.
 
 Sigh, I'd like to say that I resolve to follow my creative heart and make Halloween costumes for babies...but I just don't think I can make the time.  Ok, I resolve to continue to consider it and not give up on it.
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 Now that you've had Theo a good amount of time, and gotten to know him pretty well (although he still has some surprises for you), I'm curious: What have you found to be the most difficult thing about being a Mom (and there will be more than one answer), and what is the most surprising?  I've had my girl for 15+ years, and I am supremely grateful for each and every moment.  I never thought I would be a Mom- I really didn't think I could have kids, and had settled in to being a total Uber-Auntie before the happy surprise.  My most difficult things- watching kids and parents be stupid and unkind, and not being able to stop the illness that took her hearing.  My best:  realizing she was her own little person, with her own likes and dislikes, and learning how to cater to them.  

  (I foolishly thought I would have at least a semblance of influence in these areas...)  Also, when I realized that her hearing loss didn't define her, but it contributed to the awesome person she is.  
My 2010 was rather 'eh'- neither good nor bad.  The worst part of it was when my sis lost her job- I was so worried about her (she's a total workaholic) and I was so very happy for her when she landed in an even better situation.  I also had to have a couple of esophageal  biopsies, which was a bit scary as I had a 2 out of three chance of having something bad.  I lucked out and got a serious food allergy, which at press time seems to be wheat.  (Try to find things without wheat or gluten in them- I dares ya!).  Let's just say I'm ecstatic about Trader Joes finally coming to Spokane.  (Woot!)