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I've spent the day avoiding media. I don't need to be reminded of the horror. I don't need to be reminded to "never forget". I was supposed to go to our city's ceremony today as part of the volunteer group to which I belong, but I just can't face the obligatory patriotism, to hear again the songs they *always* play, the flags.... just no.

I heard it said that to heal from a trauma, you kind of have to forget and that makes a lot of sense to me. Not forget in a way to pretend it never happened, but forget the sheer force of it, the overwhelming feelings, the fact that it was traumatizing. Some distance is good sometimes, and in order to avoid seeing boogeymen around every corner, I'm doing a tiny bit of forgetting.