Crush on the wrong person?
Okay so for the first time in a very long time I have a crush on someone. I have to admit it feels great, but there are a few problems.
First problem is I go to school with this person. If I went to anouther kind of school this would not be a problem but I go to film school where going to school is also kind of like going to work. You have to work with the same 10 or 15 students a lot both inside and outside of class and if something went wrong it would make for a very awkward next 3 years. Not very many people at my school "hook up" for this reason.
Second problem is that she is not a member of my Church. This does not matter to me one bit, in fact it is one of the resons I am attacted to her I think. But it matters a lot to my friends and family who are members of my Church. I don't want to disapoint my them.
Third problem is that I have not dated in a very long time. I just have not met anyone worth dating I guess until I met her, plus I am very shy and it takes a lot to get me out of my shell. So my dating skills are crap, I don't even really know what I would do for a first date with her. She is a smart funny California girl and I am just a hick from Utah.
So should I just go for it and ask her out, or should I keep it to myself and admire her from a distance? I am not sure how she feels about me, some signs are there that she is interested in me, and some are not. It would feel nice just to at least go out with her and test the waters, but I kind of like what I have with her now even though I am kind of frustated with it.
What should I do?
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