I have not always been heavy and I hate it. I hate the way i look. I hate buying clothes now and I hate that my bra size is a 36DDD...*sigh*...when it used to be a 34D. All through JR high and high school I was 5'5" and 110 pounds. (and I thought I was fat.) Then I got a car and gained 15 pounds. I went into a huge depression and ended up loosing it the anerexic way. I had my child at 19 and of course gained 25 pounds. After having her I weighed 155 and felt horrible. It took me longer to loose that and a divirce...LOL...anyway. I got to 125 which was alright, but I wanted to be thinner. I then met my current BF who showed me how to cook and make things like mashed potatoes with real butter and heavy cream, alfredo sauce and lemon chicken fired in real butter amongst other things.....well, after 11 years on this type of food and fighting my weight constantly I'm now alot heavier. I'm getting serious about loosing weight now, but I tend to get anerexic when i diet...finding the balance is difficult for me. I have self confidence, but I still hate being this way....so I'm finally doing something about it...
...withour diet pills, and fad diets....the hopefully healthy way...