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AllyOops! · 12-21-2005, 01:45 PM

I'm nervous to admit this, but I'm also troubled by horrifying and graphic nightmares lately, and I wish I knew what they meant. In almost all of them, I go into my backyard, and I'm shocked to see my little snow pea, and my other late Lab, Doc, laying on the patio. They are happy, but dirty and skinny because I thought they had passed away. However, they were alive all this time and I didn't know. I never even fed them. I wake up wanting to cry because in real life my purpose and joy was taking care of my babies. Why does this happen in my dreams? In my other recurring nightmare, the same thing happens, but my little snow pea rolls over on her side and I can see through her, inside of her. She's intact, but I can see her ribs, her EVERYTHING. I see that she's sick inside and I try to rush her to the doctor's but my Stepdad tells me she probably won't make it in time. I collapse crying in his arms and tell him "I can't go through losing her again."

Why am I such an awful guardian in my dreams? Why did I just share that?

Am I alone? Has anybody gone through this? Sometimes I have wonderful, warm & pleasant dreams where I'm visited by those that I've lost. Other times, I have the kind of nightmares that actually have me wake up shaking. When I think of them, I actually begin to cry. They are just that vivid.

Is there something wrong with me?

12-21-2005, 01:45 PM	#26
AllyOops! It's Peanut Butter Jelly Time!!! Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Introspection Intersection Posts: 1,207	I'm nervous to admit this, but I'm also troubled by horrifying and graphic nightmares lately, and I wish I knew what they meant. In almost all of them, I go into my backyard, and I'm shocked to see my little snow pea, and my other late Lab, Doc, laying on the patio. They are happy, but dirty and skinny because I thought they had passed away. However, they were alive all this time and I didn't know. I never even fed them. I wake up wanting to cry because in real life my purpose and joy was taking care of my babies. Why does this happen in my dreams? In my other recurring nightmare, the same thing happens, but my little snow pea rolls over on her side and I can see through her, inside of her. She's intact, but I can see her ribs, her EVERYTHING. I see that she's sick inside and I try to rush her to the doctor's but my Stepdad tells me she probably won't make it in time. I collapse crying in his arms and tell him "I can't go through losing her again." Why am I such an awful guardian in my dreams? Why did I just share that? Am I alone? Has anybody gone through this? Sometimes I have wonderful, warm & pleasant dreams where I'm visited by those that I've lost. Other times, I have the kind of nightmares that actually have me wake up shaking. When I think of them, I actually begin to cry. They are just that vivid. Is there something wrong with me?
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