[Cadaverous Pallor]

Ally, sweetie. You've been through some rough times. Looks like you can't let go of some guilt you're harboring, even though you have no reason to feel guilty where your sweet dogs are concerned. It's obvious you took wonderful, loving care of them.

I'm sure someone close to you has already recommended that you get a new pet, but that's something you'd need to be ready for. I can't tell you that it's exactly what you need, but perhaps, if you were pouring your love into some new pet, you would be able to move on?

I hope you find a way to make your grieving process easier. No one deserves nightmares like that.