[Cadaverous Pallor]

You've got to write every day
he said
odd intimacy of kitchen counter sitting
gotta lock yourself in that closet
write, even if you hate it
some days you'll make love to the reader
some days you'll masterbate
some days you can't even masterbate
legs swing free like a child's banging the dishwasher
talk of working and making it work
and hating the work hating your work being unsure
and seeing delusion in others and wondering of your own delusion
but writing anyway

So, here I am