[Cadaverous Pallor]

Been good lately
exercise
cleaning up
prioritizing
enjoying breathing

ok, maybe not "good" but at least "better"
feeling better about doing better
means more doing better
I guess

Today I feel stuck to the seat
must shop, must clean
must write something, anything
muscles don't move

These renaissances get shorter and shorter
I'll do well for a few weeks, then a week, then less
until my ass gets attached to the couch again

So much to do, so much to ignore
reread, review, retry, reboot
don't know when to move forward or when to look back
and the stuff that I've done needs rechecking

can't live it all
can't live at all
trapped in lazy malaise

where the fck is my coffee