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I used to be a committed Christian, but over the last ten years, I've slid all the way down the slipppery slope and I'm now firmly in the secular humanist camp. The study of comparative religion, New Testament history and historical research/conjecture about Jesus are subjects that continue to fascinate me, and they occupy a major chunk of my free time. (In fact, pursiung those interests is what eroded my beliefs away, very slowly. I started out on that journey trying to come up with better apologistic defenses of traditional faith, and look where that got me.)
While I am sure that Yahweh the Judeo-Christian God is a human invention, I would concede that it is un-knowable whether there is any higher intelligence or prime mover or uncaused cause behind the universe. I tend to doubt it, but I sure can't disprove it.
I do miss the social aspects of belonging to a church and the music, pageantry and splendor that accompanied it. I also miss the sense of childlike trust and wonderment when I thought I understood life, the universe and everything, and had a name for it. But it's a place I can never return to, however cozy and reassuring I once found it. (whistful sigh)
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