[Strangler Lewis]

I know you didn't ask for solutions, but as a man and an attorney, that's really all I know how to give. The solution is that unless you are going to forfeit a lot of money by doing so, postpone/cancel your vacation. Why, I have many pleasant memories of vacations/weekends that I've put off due to unexpected work explosions, the not-quite-so-unexpected death of my father, etc. You need time, and you need to save money to have a roof over your head (or so it seems from your tone). It's rare that one can actually remove a cause of anxiety. Here you can.