Oh, when I say I'm not Christian anymore what I mean is that I don't really believe in God anymore. Or maybe I do, but not a God that has much to do with earth. I believe in infinity and that's as close to a belief in God as I'm willing to get right now. Or perhaps it's that I just don't care whether there's a god or not. Maybe I should just sit next to the atheist table and eavesdrop.
