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[Gemini Cricket]

In 5 days I will be 37.
I usually don't freak out about birthdays, but for some reason this one is looming like a vulture in a top hat.
Ever feel like where you are isn't where you imagined yourself to be ten years ago?
I mean 37. That was the age I always thought my aunts were when I was a kid and even now. Yes, they're 50 something now... but 37 always seemed so old to me.
I saw myself as having a house, a husband and a dog. Now I live in a borrowed apartment with borrowed furniture, and an ex who lives with my ex dog. Oh, and yeah, no job.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not in the feel sorry for myself mode here. It just feels like time's flying by.
Yeah, I shouldn't complain about being 37. It's just a number. I've got my health, my life...
This weirdness is just a hitch, a speed bump, intermission... life will go on after it's done.

[Alex]

This isn't going to help (or maybe it will), but you're way older than I thought.

But don't worry about how old you are, that's generally not relevant to much other than how much you need to be putting into an IRA if you want to start investing now and retire at 50 as a millionaire.

[BarTopDancer]

Originally Posted by Gemini Cricket

Ever feel like where you are isn't where you imagined yourself to be ten years ago?

Yup. Had that at 30. Was supposed to have a house, a husband, a few kids and a dog. Instead I was living in an apartment, thankful I didn't have a husband or kids (or a dog) and very thankful for my amazing friends.

I hope that your 37 is as awesome to you as 30 has been to me.

[Kevy Baby]

I'm 43.

[Chernabog]

37 dicks!?!?! Don't suck any dick on your way out to the parking lot!!!

[Not Afraid]

46 in a month.

[MouseWife]

I'll be 43 in a few days....

I actually liked the number 37. A good number. And, it isn't a young '30s {so you've been in the 30's hood for a while and have that experience} and you aren't 40 {although my 40th was fun spent at Disneyland proudly proclaiming my age on my birthday sticker}.

Okay. But, honestly, I won't ever ask anyone to guess my age. Ever.

I doubt if I would be as lucky as you are with Alexs' guess.

[cirquelover]

I'm sorry you're not where you planned to be but I'm sure there are reasons. Like have you found Mr. Wonderful? I think he's still out there waiting for the right time, for both of you.

I have found you need to readjust your expectations for your life as you get closer to certain ages. Also your hopes and expectations change through the years, as you grow and learn.

You will find your way and your happiness. I know it will!

Now that I'm umm 39 and holding ( ok 41 right now) I find most parts aren't as bad as I expected and occasionally I reevaluate and keep chugging along.

[Alex]

Originally Posted by MouseWife

I doubt if I would be as lucky as you are with Alexs' guess.

You might be surprised. I pretty much operate on the assumption that everybody I know only online is younger than me.

Which is stupid, since pretty much everybody I interact with regularly online is actually older than me. But I'm finally starting to catch up to the age people have always assumed I am.

[Gemini Cricket]

It is a little weird to be 37 and not know what you should be doing. At this age, it feels like I should already be 10 years into a career already. I ain't.

I think I'll spend the 10th at the park. Just chillin'. I think Bornieo is going to hang with me. It'll be fun. I'll get a button and some freakin' tortillas.

I totally get that whole readjustment of things at a certain age. I'm at the point where I want to chuck the whole entertainment industry out the window. I mean, I like to write, but I can't stand the industry sometimes.

I hate being in so much turmoil, but I think there's a clarity in chaos. Some of my favorite writing pieces came to me during hard times...

I also hear that the 40's are better than the 30's. I know my 20's sucked.


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