The Fat Thread

[Ponine]

Okay, I'll bite...

I have not always been "obese" as the doctor says I am.
As a high schooler I topped out at 125 and college student I never topped 140.

In the early 90's when shopping for wedding dresses I was 145. That's 90 lbs less than I am now. At that time I was told I was too heavy , or fat, for the gowns in the stores. I couldnt try them on.
(I made mine)

I thought I was fat then... like E, I would go back to that stage of "fat" in a heart beat.

I eat because it's an easily social thing to do. I eat when I am depressed, and when I am stressed out.
I eat while watching a movie, and lastly because food tastes good.
I never stopped to think ,"hey, why are you eating, you arent hungry" until recently.

Having been thin for a long period in my life, its awkward for me to think of myself as Fat, however I know that I am.
I however lack the motivation to do anything aobut it.
I wouldnt mind dropping 40 lbs or so, just enough to not see a three digit number that starts with 2..
but I am not motivated to go to the gym, to eat less, or to starve myself.

I no longer eat what my son leaves behind, and that's a huge plus!
But, as society lets me order larger portions, I feel compelled to eat them. As new chocolate comes on the market, I feel compelled to try it!

I too know how to achieve this goal, but I fail to put the plan into action.

(and what would I do if I lost my cleavage??? That thought scares me!!)