Have a Fear of Heights?

[innerSpaceman]

Originally Posted by blueerica

I guess what I've come to like about it are the endorphins that stay with me throughout the day. Better than any drug I've tried, hands down.

You haven't tried enough drugs.

[blueerica]

Originally Posted by innerSpaceman

You haven't tried enough drugs.

Trust me, I've tried a lot (I just don't talk about it with most people probably because of the following), and I've always been disappointed in one way or another, just as I'm sure I'd be disappointed if I died. Wait... And like the Coca-cola discussion, I'm hardly an abstainer.

I just think that the thrill and subsequent elation for me feels much less false. Drugs, for me, have always been a stepping away from reality, whereas doing actual thrilling things has been like a total immersion of reality. I like knowing that I can die, I like seeing how insignificant all my little worries in life are pressed against such an enormity of life and death. Not that I want to die, but thrills are generally a perspective-fixer that doesn't just fade away.

I have a feeling that when I'm done with school, I'll be making more time for trying new things like this.