sorrow and despair

[MickeyLumbo]

i have been walking around in circles, can't eat, can't sleep and thought perhaps reaching out to my LoT family and putting some feelings in writing might help... at least try to release the deep sorrow i have tonight.

i was called at work and informed that my dog, Kaila, had become very ill within the past 24 hours and was unresponsive and struggling to breath, etc. she was fine/normal through tuesday... no sign of illness.

i rushed from work and took her to the ER.

the progosis was so grim, with any treatment likely to result in only prolonging her agony, i made the most difficult decision in my life so far.

oh my God, it hurts so bad right now writing about it.

Kaila passed away in my arms at 8:20 pm tonight.

Brett is still working and not able to leave work so i am just completely filled with grief - and alone until he gets home.

i just needed to share this pain.

it hurts so bad.

[innerSpaceman]

Aww, MickeyLumbo. so, so, sorry for the loss of your sweet Kaila. How tragic to go from healthy to gone in such a shockingly short span ... as if our beloved animal friends don't pass on soon enough.

i have had a cherished pet die in my arms, and the memory is grim. Besides the loss of Peyote, it was the only time i've actually seen a living creature die. It was a double dose of intense emotional trauma.

i hope you will recall only the fond memories, and that your grief is as brief and as ultimately healing as may be.

My deepest condolences.

- steve

[Bornieo: Fully Loaded]

So sorry for your loss, my friend.

[Not Afraid]

Sweetie!

I just tried to call you.

I'm so sorry! It hurts more than anything. I know what you're going through and it makes me hurt.

If i was with you, I'd give you the biggest, longest hung know to mankind. I hope Brett can get home soon.

Call me if you want to talk.

I love you.

[mollywog]

*hugs* losing a furkid is one of the hardest things in the universe I think.
You made a very rough decision, and put Kaila's wellbeing in front of your own desires, which is the very best thing that a responsible person can do.
I've had to make that decision three times now, and it totally sucked all three times. My thoughts are with you, and George the cat is purring for you.
I know that Kaila is up at the Rainbow Bridge, happy and healthy and running around with my childhood dogs waiting for you for a happy reunion someday.

[BarTopDancer]

/superduperbighugs.

[JWBear]

My condolences. <<HUGS>>

[blueerica]

Two things:

1.) Our friends here beat me to my own thoughts, so I won't just say the same thing - just know I mean them, too.

2.) I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope that Brett will be home soon, and hope that you can feel my most sincere of condolences, as well as the others posted here. If I could be there right now, you'd be getting the biggest hug I have to give. Cherish the love you shared with Kaila and know she cherished them, too.

[Prudence]

Our beloved pets are wonderful gifts that come with a high price. It is a sad day, and I am sorry for your unexpected loss.

[Gemini Cricket]

I'm sorry to hear about your loss, MickeyLumbo.

Hang in there.
If there's anything you need, just call.