Looking Back and Looking Forward 2010 & 2011

[Cadaverous Pallor]

It'd be far too easy to say that my resolution for 2010 is to have a healthy baby and do my best by him. I'll expand on that to say that I resolve to find others near us who have begun families and are cool enough to hang out with. I resolve to do my best to not spiral in worry and perfectionism over my kid, but also to show him guidance and care in ways that will benefit him as much as possible. It's a fine line.

Found others with kids that are actually cool - CHECK. Maybe they'll eventually merit an invite into my LoT world, heh.

There are areas that I'm very laid back about with Theo and others where I do obsess a bit. It can be hard to not second guess yourself when you have very little feedback from someone who can't tell you what they need. I can't say I'm fully successful at tamping down the crazy but I'm doing as well as I can. I will continue to work on it.

For 2011...I use a lot of tools in my parenting kit, including Patience, Playfulness, Optimism, Joy...and they need sharpening constantly. I resolve to keep smiling amidst hard days because he deserves the best mom I can be.

I resolve to have more people over, and to visit people more often. Sure, there are limitations, but there are also many possibilities.

Sigh, I'd like to say that I resolve to follow my creative heart and make Halloween costumes for babies...but I just don't think I can make the time. Ok, I resolve to continue to consider it and not give up on it.