Riding crop costumes go bye bye

[Not Afraid]

I think I've come to realize that most people want their bodies to be different than what they currently are.

As a former stick figure (140, size 6, b-cup) I was never happy then. I wanted curves and softness. I hated being boney and hard. My SIL brought up a memory that my Mother told me (and everyone in the room) one Thanksgiving that I had huge thighs. I probably just accepted it as fact.

Now, I carry about 50 extra pounds on me mostly due to the fact that I don't have a thyroid and I don't do much exercise. While I'm really happy I'm soft and hugable while still not looking tooooooo fat, I wish I could be about 25 lbs less. Thin enough to wear clothes well and plump enough to not look decimated.

But, I guarantee you that, if 25 pounds would disappear, I'd still have something to be concerned about. I tend to work more today on my self image rather than my weight. I'm fairly happy with who I am today and that means more to me than 50 or 25 pounds ever will.