On a Quest of RE-discovery...

[Not Afraid]

WOW! I don't know how I got such a Bowie reputation, but I dig it!

I go through phases spured on by developments in my life - or lack thereof. After being sick recently - and still not 100% - I feel the depression comming on. The goold ole feelings of worthlessness, of having nothing to contribute that anyone would or should care about. I really hate this mode and try not to give it much creedence. I know it will pass. But, it also gives me a bit of focus on what DOES need to change - or at least what should be looked at. It's always the same things......fat, job, house, money, education and relationships.

At the moment, I'm just sitting quietly, taking small steps toward a few of those things until my energy level goes back to normal. That's a pretty big list and I can't do even half of it at one time. But, I have little expectations and strive for progress not perfection. That keeps me sane and gives me better results.

But, it's still difficult not to be frustrated at the moment.