Soooo....

[Mousey Girl]

Thank you...I have taken my shower and even am partly dressed. We will have to leave within the hour. After David will bring me back home to get the food and we will take 2 cars to Jimmy's parents. This way I can leave when I have had enough. I am not comfie in large groups as it is, the added stress is gonna really be tough. My friends are on standby to meet me at Chuy's tonight.

The plus side is that The Old People are going to be home today!!

OMG! Nickolas got his hair cut yesterday and just finished getting dressed, he is such a little man! Where did my baby go???

[Mousey Girl]

Well...this day from Hell is over. The services were ok, Dawn played 4 country songs that made everyone cry. The one that got to me was If Something Should Happen. It was for David. It was about a guy going in for surgery and if something should happen, take care of my wife and kids. It was hard. I looked at David and his eyes were welling up. It was better than the 1st choice which was aobut a guy and his best friend and started with, "Hey Dave." All this did was make me realize how much I hate country music.

After, I came home to change and then Nick and I went to Jimmy's parents house. There were over 150 people there. Nick had a hissy fit/melt down when I told him he could not go swimming with the rest of the kids. The adults were all getting drunk and 25 kids in the pool. I would have been the only sober person watching and I did not want that responsibility. Nick and I left. David was kidnapped by his co-workers so I caught up with them, had a margarita and went on to Chuys. David finally caught up with Nick and me at Chuys and a few of his friends came with him. Jimmy's hand, Jose is a young kid and taking it real hard. He admitted to me tonight that he came real close to following in Jimmy's footsteps. He looked up to Jimmy. He told David last Saturday that the only way he could go to work is if he could work with David. He is now David's hand.

I am just glad today is over. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through.

[Drince88]

{{Hugs}}
And a wish for your future (going off of your last line)

May this be the hardest thing you EVER have to go through.

Make sure you take care of yourself, so you can take care of your family!

[Mousey Girl]

I knew I missed not going to DLR, but I didn't realize David missed it too. He made the comment that he wished we still had our AP's so that we could just go take a day trip to cheer ourselves up a bit.
I took this as an opportunity to spring my idea for Nickolas's Santa present on him. This morning I told him what I was thinking about doing for Christmas, getting us AP's again. HE AGREED!!!! Not a single negatative comment sprung from his lips!!!

In November I will go ahead and order them online. When they arrive I plan on wrapping them in a BIG box for The Boy to find on Christmas morning. Our first trip probably won't be until after New Year's since we are going camping in Pismo then. I am just soooo excited!

[AllyOops!]

Much love & hugs, Mousey Girl. My heart completely goes out to you.

I foung out last Monday that my baby, my sweet precious girl, my little daughter (my little snowball that's pictured in my avatar) has cancer. When she began limping, I rushed her to the Pet Hospital and they found out she had a little slipped disc in her back. Her Doctor thought her front left leg limp was tendinitis from applying pressure to her front and trying to navigate stairs.

However, he was determined to pinpoint the problem and took neck and shoulder X-Rays. Her Doctor and Radiologist informed me on Monday she has a very fast spreading and agressive cancer. For the first time in years, I broke down and cried. For days. In fact I didn't get out of bed except to brush my teeth and wash my face. Golly, I couldn't even brush my hair.

I'm determined to save my Angel. She's the reason I breathe. My best friend.

Her Oncologist and Doctor gave me the news yesterday that THEY can save her life. At first they thought they could remove her tumor and give her bone replacement surgery, but they now know that they have to amputate her front left leg. Her hips and back are strong enough that they know she'll recover quickly. And, the best part? Chemo & radiation on a canine is far different from that on a human being. No nausea, mood changes or hair loss. Chemo on a canine has little to no effect on their mental and physical being.

The WORST part was knowing that if she was going to suffer..I'd have to make the ultimate decision. And it would KILL me. GUT me. I'll do ANYTHING to save my sweet baby's life.

Because her spirit is so intact. She still wags her tail wildly. Raises her ears up. Has the brightest eyes. And begs for snacks constantly.

So, I spoil my peapod. I hand feed her her dinners (I trained her to bite off of a fork and spoon like a person). Have her carried upstairs. Snuggle with her constantly. And gave up my social life. Anybody who knows me knows I'm kinda a..um, party girl. No more. My place is at home. And it's kind of funny how life surprises you. I was Miss Single Party Girl. The other night, her Daddy took her for the weekend. I went out and felt...alone. I thought of her constantly and couldn't wait to be reunited. I realized what I fear most I long for most. The truth is, I want to stay home, be her mommy, care for her and be domestic. Crazy how life surprises you. I never knew my calling in life was to settle down.

Only a few years ago, my life was complete. It was everything I had ever wanted. I lived in a fairy tale home with the man I loved and was going to marry, with my two beautiful black labs and my little fishie. I'd bake cookies in my kitchen while gossiping with my best friend on the phone.

I lost everybody. The man I was supposed to marry, my best friend, one of my Labs & my fishie. They all passed away. My little pumpkin pie is still alive and has stuck with me through all of the heartache and pain. If I lose her..I'll have nothing left. How am I supposed to live without my best friend?

Please pray for her. Next Sunday, she'll lose her leg. Instead of being sad, I know I should be happy. Because she'll finally be comfortable. Ooh! she's entering the room right now! My little snow pea. Little snow plow. Little snow crab. Yes, I'm nickname happy.

I cannot believe I shared so much. That kinda isn't like me at all.

[Mousey Girl]

(((hugs)))

[Ponine]

Ally,
Know that a great many people here love you, and are rooting for your little snow pea.

It's odd what is surfaces in the face of tragedy or strife. I think we learn quite a bit in those moments about ourselves.

Hugs for you, and your pup. I love you!

[Mousey Girl]

I am now trying to get my adrenaline back to normal. The police just left. Someone broke into David's car and took his garage door opener. He was leaving for work when he found the garage door open. He accused me of leaving it open all night. Luckily I have been up since 2:45, so I must have scared the thieves off before they could snag anything. We did find a bike that we turned into the police-it had been stolen from someone else. So now we get to reprogram our garage door and make sure that everything is locked up tighter than normal at night.

[Not Afraid]

YIKES! There's nothing quite so bad as that feeling of violation you get from a break in or an attempted one. Thank god it wasn't worse. Was David's car damaged?

[Prudence]

Yoiks! I'm glad everyone's okay! I prescribe one cup of herbal tea, stat! And an enormously large box of chocolates.