sorrow and despair - Page 3

Ghoulish Delight · 02-08-2008, 08:14 AM

I am so sorry ML. I know how much you loved her, and I know how much it hurts. I'm sorry I never got to meet her.

Hang in there.

Kevy Baby · 02-08-2008, 08:44 AM

My dear friend - my heart breaks for. I comfort in knowing that Brett is with you now. Susan is available today for when you need to talk. I will call to check on you shortly.

Jazzman · 02-08-2008, 08:58 AM

I can't add much other than know that I've shed a tear for you, said a prayer and send all the good waves I can. Take care and remember that she still loves you and feels your love.

wendybeth · 02-08-2008, 09:47 AM

I'm so sorry, Mickey. Like many others here, I have also gone through what you are experiencing and just knowing how you must be feeling right now makes me very sad. Like MP said, you are a good daddy and Kaila was a lucky puppy to have someone who loved her so very much. Big hugs to you and Brett.

DreadPirateRoberts · 02-08-2008, 09:48 AM

I'm sorry ML. I went through a similar situation in August. It was the hardest decision of my life. I think I know how you feel.

Gn2Dlnd · 02-08-2008, 10:05 AM

It's a sad thing that our animal friends will likely pass before we do. My friends Rick and Ricky lost their little chihuahua Dinky on Christmas day. Tuff stuff. And you'll get through it. Keep your friends close, you've got some great people here.
((hugs))

MickeyLumbo · 02-08-2008, 10:07 AM

it has been a difficult night/morning...with little sleep. reading through this thread, although sobbing, i have been so deeply comforted by your care and concern.

the feelings are still so raw.

there is/was no way i could perform "on stage" and do my job properly, and gratefully, my boss has given me the day off.

Brett stayed up with me until 2am and has already left for work. that is probably a good thing because he must feel helpless hearing my agony.

my mind tells me i did the right thing.

my heart feels like i betrayed her trust - the trust that she had that i would always be her protector and best friend.

IsM - your post was considerably comforting, and i thank you so much.
3894 - rainbow ridge is amazing and i can only pray that it is true. difficult to watch this morning, but, i am indeed grateful you directed me to that site.

it has been eye opening to hear of how many of you have "been there" and know this feeling. this was a first for me and i can't bear the thought of experiencing that moment of decision again.

fvck.

thank you all for taking the time to post and making me feel so loved.

Deebs · 02-08-2008, 10:25 AM

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Originally Posted by MickeyLumbo

my mind tells me i did the right thing.

my heart feels like i betrayed her trust - the trust that she had that i would always be her protector and best friend.

You absolutely did not betray her trust. You saved her suffering. You are still her protector and best friend. You were there holding her when she said goodbye to you. She loves you, she thanks you.

I am so sorry for your loss. I have also been through it and it is horrible. I'm sorry you had a bad night last night and hope you are able to sleep soon. Glad you have today off. Take care of yourself.

MickeyLumbo · 02-08-2008, 10:31 AM

i have run out of mojo for the day -

thanks again all for your phone calls, care and concern.

and God bless LoT.

blueerica · 02-08-2008, 10:35 AM

ML, you didn't betray her trust, you fulfilled it by making what was ultimately the kindest decision a person could make.

*hugs*

02-08-2008, 08:14 AM	#21
Ghoulish Delight I Floop the Pig Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Alternative Swankstyle Posts: 19,348	I am so sorry ML. I know how much you loved her, and I know how much it hurts. I'm sorry I never got to meet her. Hang in there. __________________ 'He who receives an idea from me, receives instruction himself without lessening mine; as he who lights his taper at mine, receives light without darkening me.' -TJ
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02-08-2008, 08:44 AM	#22
Kevy Baby Chowder Head Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Yes Posts: 18,500	My dear friend - my heart breaks for. I comfort in knowing that Brett is with you now. Susan is available today for when you need to talk. I will call to check on you shortly. __________________ The thing about quotes on the internet is that you cannot verify their validity. - Abraham Lincoln
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02-08-2008, 08:58 AM	#23
Jazzman Sax God Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Portland's Tijuana Posts: 510	I can't add much other than know that I've shed a tear for you, said a prayer and send all the good waves I can. Take care and remember that she still loves you and feels your love.
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02-08-2008, 09:47 AM	#24
wendybeth Nevermind Join Date: Jan 2005 Posts: 7,847	I'm so sorry, Mickey. Like many others here, I have also gone through what you are experiencing and just knowing how you must be feeling right now makes me very sad. Like MP said, you are a good daddy and Kaila was a lucky puppy to have someone who loved her so very much. Big hugs to you and Brett. __________________
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02-08-2008, 09:48 AM	#25
DreadPirateRoberts Senior Member Join Date: Mar 2006 Posts: 2,483	I'm sorry ML. I went through a similar situation in August. It was the hardest decision of my life. I think I know how you feel.
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02-08-2008, 10:05 AM	#26
Gn2Dlnd Parmmadore Jim Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Casita del Queso Posts: 3,810	It's a sad thing that our animal friends will likely pass before we do. My friends Rick and Ricky lost their little chihuahua Dinky on Christmas day. Tuff stuff. And you'll get through it. Keep your friends close, you've got some great people here. ((hugs)) __________________ Does anyone still wear a hat?
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02-08-2008, 10:07 AM	#27
MickeyLumbo thankfully grateful Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: shangrila Posts: 1,388	it has been a difficult night/morning...with little sleep. reading through this thread, although sobbing, i have been so deeply comforted by your care and concern. the feelings are still so raw. there is/was no way i could perform "on stage" and do my job properly, and gratefully, my boss has given me the day off. Brett stayed up with me until 2am and has already left for work. that is probably a good thing because he must feel helpless hearing my agony. my mind tells me i did the right thing. my heart feels like i betrayed her trust - the trust that she had that i would always be her protector and best friend. IsM - your post was considerably comforting, and i thank you so much. 3894 - rainbow ridge is amazing and i can only pray that it is true. difficult to watch this morning, but, i am indeed grateful you directed me to that site. it has been eye opening to hear of how many of you have "been there" and know this feeling. this was a first for me and i can't bear the thought of experiencing that moment of decision again. fvck. thank you all for taking the time to post and making me feel so loved. __________________
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02-08-2008, 10:31 AM	#29
MickeyLumbo thankfully grateful Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: shangrila Posts: 1,388	i have run out of mojo for the day - thanks again all for your phone calls, care and concern. and God bless LoT. __________________
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02-08-2008, 10:35 AM	#30
blueerica Nueve Join Date: Jan 2005 Posts: 6,497	ML, you didn't betray her trust, you fulfilled it by making what was ultimately the kindest decision a person could make. hugs __________________ Tomorrow is the day for you and me
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