I've been 40lbs lighter than I am now at my lightest. I've been 40lbs heavier than I am now at my heaviest. During these two time periods I thought I was fat, and ugly. Didn't care how I looked, or dressed. I was not comfortable with myself. Today, I am not comfortable with what the scale says, but I am comfortable in my skin. I have clothes that fit and look cute. I know I'm not ugly. If I were to wear a skirt it will be to my knees. I like my calves, hate my thighs and the fat in my stomach and saddlebags has to go. I feel the extra weight in my knees and back. I don't like that. There are health issues staring me in the face as well. Frankly, medical studies that show that women with excess weight/fat in certain places are at higher disposition for heart disease scare the crap out of me.

-30lbs is my healthy goal. It's a healthy weight for me and will put me at a healthy BMI. Where that goal sits on my list of goals is another question.