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Main Entry: ex·pec·ta·tion
Pronunciation: "ek-"spek-'tA-sh&n, ik-
Function: noun
1 : the act or state of expecting : ANTICIPATION <in expectation of what would happen>
2 a : something expected <not up to expectations> <expectations for an economic recovery> b : basis for expecting : ASSURANCE <they have every expectation of success> c : prospects of inheritance -- usually used in plural
3 : the state of being expected
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Main Entry: ex·pect
Pronunciation: ik-'spekt
Function: verb
Etymology: Latin exspectare to look forward to, from ex- + spectare to look at, frequentative of specere to look -- more at SPY
1 archaic : AWAIT
2 : to anticipate or look forward to the coming or occurrence of <we expect them any minute now> <expected a telephone call>
3 : SUPPOSE, THINK
4 a : to consider probable or certain <expect to be forgiven> <expect that things will improve> b : to consider reasonable, due, or necessary <expected hard work from the students> c : to consider bound in duty or obligated <they expect you to pay your bills>
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There's a reason I don't have expectations,
Or at least a reason I try not to.
If I expect, I set myself up to be hurt.
I don't need the extra help.
If I expect, the world can disappoint.
It doesn't need the extra help.
Why is it then that even as I try not to have expectations,
I somehow still do?
I long for many things.
I anticipate a great many more.
I however foresee none.
I hope, for things I think that others may expect.
I hope,
For the unsolicited "I like you",
and for the intimate touch of a loved one.
I cherish;
Moments I feel worthy of love,
Hearing someone say they think me worthy,
Times when I feel safe,
and hours when I can just be me.
I dream;
Of moments without rules or restrictions.
That a time will come where I don't care who's watching,
Of a future where I don't live behind a smokescreen.
I don't expect any of these things.
To expect I would feel loss if they did not happen.
Without the expectation,
I feel joy when they do.
Never the less,
Occasionally, expectation creeps in.
And every time, that expectation raises it fur, and strikes a death blow to the heart.
I can't expect. I won't.
I dream, hope, fancy, and long for.
And with all I am, I cherish what I am given.