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So "Playhouse Disney" was cool to work this weekend. We beat their latest load-out time, too, which was cool. They had hoped for 2 hours, but we got the doors closed by 1 hour 30 minutes.

There were a couple of us singing the songs and dancing backstage. They're sort of used to it from me, but the other guy's kind of new and it was surprising. Cute, but seemingly out of character. That's ok. They had *really* cool costumes. The faces of Mickey, Minnie, Donald, Goofy, Tigger and Pooh were animated- mouths moved, eyes blinked, and the faces were soft flexible stuff.

So so cool. Expensive, and kind of touchy, but really cool.

And now I have a large beer to keep me company tonight. Yummy. Both dogs curled up on their pillows, a cat curled up next to me, and an evening to work on homework. Definitely needed.

I've been processing the break-up with the girl. Oddly, I think we wanted the same things out of the relationship, but it just wasn't possible. She wasn't getting what she wanted, but I wasn't either, though I was unwilling to admit it. There was so much I wanted to give her, and the distance was a larger factor than I thought it would be. Sadly it was right to end.

Plus, the fact that without having met my hubby, I'd probably *be* her in a lot of ways right now. The break-up trauma catapulted me into dealing a bit with my "coming-up to 40" personal re-assessment crisis. Not a lot, but a bit. I think there's a lot coming up, but there's a little bit done. I'm just feeling kind of lost and blind right now. It's not something I like. At least at work I was feeling like my old self; skipping across the stage and bounding up the stairs felt like me. The folks at work know to gauge me and how well I'm feeling by how nutty I am; I like that. And today I was feeling pretty good. Bout darn time, I say.

I've been processing with the help of the music from "Wicked" and I think I'm finally ready to let it go some. I'll see the musical again in November with some of the guys from work, which will be cool, and we're taking the backstage tour. I'm such a geek, because I can hardly wait to see it.

But I'm ok with my inner geek. She sort of knows how to be happy.