Never been depressed

[Ghoulish Delight]

I've never been depressed.

I've been sad
I've been angry
I've been introspective
I've been anti-social

But I've never been depressed.

I faked it once.
Three family members died in a short period
When I was in elementary school.
I mourned for them and I grieved
But I was never depressed.
But one day I was tired at school
So I pretended to be depressed about it
So that I wouldn't have to really do anything
Because people would feel sorry for me.
I cried
and I moped
But it was an act

I sometimes wonder
If people think I don't have feelings
Or compassion
Simply because
I've never been depressed.
It's not true, you know.

[Gemini Cricket]

Good stuff. Love it love it.

[Cadaverous Pallor]

My sweetheart, solid as a rock in a world of irrational, emotional turbulence. You definitely balance my instability well. And yet, on most days, your empathy exceeds mine. The power of your logical mind in regards to emotional decisions forever impresses me.

People don't think you don't have feelings - we envy the power of your judgement to override the stupid impulses our emotions give us. And if anyone tries to tell me you don't have feelings I'll kick their ass.

Love you.

[MerryPrankster]

I like it!

Thank God we are all unique beings. Things would get rather boring (or mopey) otherwise.

[MickeyD]

Geez, you emotionless robot!

I kid, I kid!!

Very nice....and I doubt anyone thinks you don't have feelings. And just because you've never felt something yourself, doesn't mean you don't have compassion for those who have.

[Eliza Hodgkins 1812]

I like the straight forwardness of this, especially the "I faked it once" line.

[Ghoulish Delight]

Originally Posted by Eliza Hodgkins 1812

I like the straight forwardness of this, especially the "I faked it once" line.

Thanks, that was my favorite part too. I just kept thinking, "You know, I could write some great moody poetry too...if I were ever moody. But I never have been, so oh well. Oh, but there was that one time I faked it..."

[Gemini Cricket]

GD ~
I know this is going to sound a little weird. (Maybe it's because I just watched 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind'...) But I would voluntarily give up all my happy memories I have collected thus far in order to never experience another depressed day for the rest of my life. Needless to say, I wish I had your 'problem'.

[MouseWife]

Well, maybe your parents did it right? I don't know. I know that growing up, we weren't allowed to be a lot of emotions. It was so big 'Think about the starving kids in China!' 'Would you like me to give you something to cry about?' 'You are so selfish'.

So, I never had to fake it. I didn't know what to fake. I remember a friend asking me if I ever felt depressed and I told her that if ever I started to feel down I told myself 'There are others worse off than you are'.

Later, someone else asked me if I'd ever suffered depression. By this time I realize that I had. I'd been through a lot of things but kept going like 'Gunga Din' {sp, it is what my MIL called me}.

I think it is great to be able to recognize it. It makes the good days that much sweeter.

I have some songs that I put in my cd walkman and hit the pavement and just enjoy. Smell the roses. Carry my pepper spray.