So, I'm wondering.

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Oh, here I am! I'm so happy I logged on this morning!!

Oh, Ponine! You could NEVER do anything wrong! I absolutely love you! I'm so sorry! One of my biggest flaws is that I never let anybody (family included) know what's going on with me when I get busy! I have more enemies then friends right now, I think. I'm sorry! I always forget to check my PM's. I'm going to send you one!

I have been unpacking! I had a sudden change of heart and decided to remain in Los Angeles. It was a decision I had been waffling with, and I knew it was for the best. I <3 this city! I'm up to my highlights in wardrobe boxes, and making donation bags. Plus, all the crazy little adjustments you make with moving to a new home. And then my computer dilemmas!! ARGGH!

May is always a tough month for me. It's filled with many joyous birthdays, and sadly, death anniversaries. Friday was my late boyfriend's would-have-been 40th birthday. Three days before that, was the 1 year anniversary of my Grandpa's death. It's been harder then I thought. Ironically, they are buried next to each other. I live much closer to the cemetery now, so I'm able to visit and bring flowers. I feel so awful, because it's this month that I become tortured with the "could of been's". My best friend's death anniversary is coming in a few weeks. I wonder when this stops being so painful & lonely?

Now, I'm wondering why I just bared my Soul. Happy thoughts, happy thoughts! Dark place be gone.

Lickey~ Thank you! So many hugs for you!