Curious Queries – Interview II

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Originally Posted by LSPoorEeyorick

EUROMEINKE! You have such insightful and clever things to say on the board. You are an awfully quiet man in person. This, of course, has its charm, and I don't mean to belittle it. I'm simply curious about why the internet draws out your conversation, and why hanging out inspires you to keep more mum. Also, is it possible to keep more mum? Is that a sorely-phrased expression?

Whew – good question, I wish I knew the answer and would be interested in hearing some theories. I suppose in many ways, I’m more comfortable with expressing myself in the written word than in the spoken word. But that seems too simple and pat an explanation.

I think in many ways I’m a reluctant leader, call it shy, or maybe even codependent, but when a group gets going, it creates a certain momentum and I hate to get in it’s way. I’m uncomfortable competing for the attention that live groups seem to have. I usually wait for a lull to step in, and then very tentatively. Lack of confidence? Fear of rejection? Perhaps those come into play – whatever it is, it’s probably irrational.

I much prefer one-on-one conversations, and in those situations I can be quite verbose – or so I’m told.

I suppose the internet works for me in that I can put myself out without talking over anyone else. People can choose to ignore what I say, so I don’t feel so bad about putting it out there. I am very fascinated with other people’s stories, and love to hear about the things that make them unique. So I suppose my whoring this thread is perhaps a fine example of a way in which I feed my intellectual voyeurism.

But I do wish sometimes, I could import my internet self into the real world. Perhaps someday I'll be able to Matrix myself in