2012, Here We Come

[Kevy Baby]

I want to grow up.

I know that sounds like my typical flippant remark, but I actually mean it. I have just let life come to me as it has and not really made much effort to guide things where I wanted them to go. But then to do this, I guess I need to decide where I want it to go.

I am actually ashamed of my complete lack of motivation right now. (For those who don't know, I was let know of my job in mid November.). There are a lot of things I COULD do, but nothing that I can think of that I WANT to do.

So, obviously, one of my goals for 2012 is to get a job. Despite the economy, I know I will get one soon, but whether it is something that will inspire me or be at the same pay level as before remains to be seen.

But this apathy is not just about employment; it extends to my personal life as well. It has been a long time since I have felt inspired to want to make my life better. I have had a LOT of free time over the past six or so weeks and really have done nothing with this time.

Not sure what I can do to turn this around: just thought I would start making myself accountable.

[BarTopDancer]

Originally Posted by Cadaverous Pallor

Honestly, these last 6 months have been very trying for me, and it seems my tools have grown mostly dull. I've been feeling irritated and selfish in the face of Theo's growing demands and stubbornness. To put it simply, this is Hard, and I RESOLVE to be better, for all of our sakes.

What's the expression? Parenthood is the hardest job you'll ever have?

Maybe it's just T turning on the 'adorableness' around people he doesn't see all the time but he's adorable. And in a world full of "I have to babysit my son while his mother does..." you (and GD) really show that not all hope is lost in the parenting world.

Originally Posted by Kevy Baby

I want to grow up.

I am actually ashamed of my complete lack of motivation right now. (For those who don't know, I was let know of my job in mid November.)

I didn't know. I'm sorry

For 2011:
I spent most of 2010 in some sort of injury preventing me from really working out. I will go back to the gym and focus on my health.
Continue my education in ways that will allow me to branch out from tech support. So.Over.It.
Travel more, beyond Vegas. Maybe even go see E in F'in UT.

I lost 25lbs this year, gained some back with the holiday eating but I'm confident that will drop back off as soon as the end of the year pasts.

Never made it back to school, still so.over.IT but I am learning more in my job that can expand where I go in the IT world that isn't just helpdesk.

I went to see E in F'in UT TWICE. Once was fun (boy was that fun!). Shot my first ever gun (did you know they will let someone who has never shot a gun shoot a P90 for their first?!). Second time wasn't for fun but ended up being fun. The hospital didn't bat an eye at two men spray painting team logos on their bodies in the tiny bathroom.

I have also gotten better with establishing boundaries with my parents and finally ended a toxic friendship.

For 2012:

Continue to focus on my health, lose some more weight, gain some muscle and strength and fully quit smoking.

Continue to expand my career knowledge.

Continue to expand my social circles. I'm getting much better, coming out of my shell and making some socialize outside of work with friends at work. I need to get the courage to go volunteer somewhere to give something back and also to meet new people. This means I need to keep coming out of my shell.