Why Did I Refuse This Random Act of Kindness?

[Morrigoon]

Originally Posted by Alex

I don't consider it something I am proud of but something I am aware of and generally able to live with. I am aware of the reasons (or what I think are the reasons) this trait developed in me and aware that they are both irrational and produce a level of misanthropy that is unnecessarily off putting to others.

But while I am willing to share the fact of the way I am and how that impacts I am not willing to share the personal details on why I think it has developed as that is generally irrelevant.

And of course I didn't do anything to let that waitress know I was in any way unhappy with her chasing me down to thank us. I said "you're welcome" and smiled and ah shucked as appropriate.

I'm sorry if I gave the impression that it was necessary to share your reasons with us, that was not the intended meaning. I was merely suggesting introspection on your own part, which it seems you have done, so... um... good, I guess

Also, I think you made yourself sound worse in that previous post than you deserved, given that you did actually do the aw schucking, etc. as appropriate. You discredit yourself unnecessarily, Alex... I'm starting to think that you think yourself a bigger b@stard than you ever possibly could be irl.