Body Image...

[MouseWife]

Yep, I can imagine someone saying that 145 is too heavy. In high school, I was a 5 dress and 7 pant; somehow we were discussing this {why I can't recall} and size seven came up. This guy said 'Is that the largest they come?' Of course now I'd say 'F off dumshiet' but then I thought 'Wow, I must be sooo huge'. I had been heavier in middle school but lost the weight over the summer between schools. So, I still felt much heavier.

The mind really does mess with us. Our scale was off. Instead of just doing the math I just didn't bother getting on it. Wow, bad choice. I went and bought a digital one and it is helping me to think twice about sleeping instead of doing something.

Peoples' perceptions on line and in person. Hmm. Well, having lost a lot of weight, I have seen a big difference in how people treat me. It really sucks because I am the same person. One person told me that if they had known me heavy, they probably wouldn't have felt the same about me. Gee, thanks.

I hate to be in pictures. I do get in them, I know that it is good in the future to show that I, in fact, did participate in life. I see myself and think please don't let me really look like that in person.....

I don't think it is a good idea to take too seriously how you look when you are using a magnifying mirror to pluck your eyebrows, either.....

Oh, and to add since I read NA's post, yes, I think that everyone is beautiful, however they look. I've felt such warmth from most everyone and such personality from everyone!!! I think that is sooo important. Beauty + Hot Bod + no personality + no compassion = a person not really worth my time.