Back home? Or back from home?

[Gemini Cricket]

So, I just came back from a week in Hawai’i with my crazy family and my ailing grandmother. And here stands a changed man.
And as I gaze at the clock and write this, I can say that I am seriously considering moving back home to Hawai’i. And the way it feels right now, I’m going to start planning it.

But I thought it fair to weigh the pros and cons of it all.

Cons:
Film jobs are limited in HI.
Many, many of my friends are in CA.
You can’t do much of a road trip in HI.
Island fever.

Pros:
I’m lovin’ the weather in HI.
There are beautiful beaches in HI.
There are beautiful men in HI.
My fam is there.
HI was a place I wanted to retire anyway.
I don’t feel like I belong in CA.
People are nicer in HI. There’s a sincerity there that I haven’t found much of here in CA.
I’m pro-Aloha spirit.
I’m happier in HI.

I’m a nomad. I’ve been moving from place to place since 1989. And I need to settle down. I’m a nester and all this movin’ is no fun for me.

I think HI may be good for fighting my depression, too. I also think that my odds of finding a man in HI is greater.

Lately, I have been thinking about where I belong. And a big part of me feels like I don’t belong anywhere. I didn’t feel right in Monterey, I didn’t feel like I fit in in Boston and now I’m not sure about LA.

Maybe going back to school in HI is something I could do. Who knows?

Also, while I was home, I got to see a play at one of the community theatres that I performed in. It made me long to act in HI again. In fact, one of the higher-ups at the theatre asked me to seriously consider coming back.

I’m feeling like I want to be near my family, my home.

But I do feel like this could be a big fvcking mistake, too. I mean, island fever is island fever. But a boy can travel if he wants to.

One of my big hurdles will be finding a good job there and one that I’m happy with. But I also have connections there that I don’t have here.

I don’t know, I’m just thinking out loud here. It’s been at the top of my mind for several weeks now. My trip to see my grandma was something that came up that made me realize that what I was thinking was not so far fetched.

And for total selfish and superficial reasons, I can get laid-a-licious in Hawai’i. But believe me, I’m not thinking of moving back for that reason or for a man…

I also am thinking that if Ralphie had not had an opportunity to move to Monterey from Hawai’i, that I may not have moved at all…

I don’t know. Yaddah yaddah, gabba gabba hey…

Anyone wanna gimmee their 2 cents?